My failings...God's victory?

I'm influenced most by people whose lives match their words. Interestingly, for these people, doing what's right is a natural way to honor God. Their influence over me is a by-product of that devotion, and I'm changed by watching the unspoken alignment of their talk and walk.

Oh, my tongue verses my motives......

What a mess I make sometimes. What is it that Paul says in Romans 7:15-20
¹⁵I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. ¹⁶And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. ¹⁷As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. ¹⁸I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature.^c]">[c] For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. ¹⁹For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. ²⁰Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.

I so badly want to live to do what is right. To live daily in the freedom of Christ. Is it the enemy that makes me stumble? Is it my sinful nature? Is it my flesh? Is it just that I'm NOT perfect? I desire so much to do what is right in the eyes of God - to be a woman after his own heart.

So, I am thankful for his sweet grace and forgiveness. I am thankful that he does not condemn us, but only exposes sin and things in us to set us free from bondage. I messed up today, I hurt someone I love. It kills me that I did this unintentioally - but I'm so thankful that I can ask for forgiveness, go to God who is quick to forgive, and learn all I can from the situation. I love my Jesus, and I try my best to follow him and do what is right - only to fall short of his glory. I pray that someday I will not fall into this -

I can't believe I'm here, in this place again, how did I manage to mess up one more time?
This pattern seems to be the story of my life, should have learned my lesson by the thousandth time.
Cause I've promiesd myself I wouldn't fall, but here I've fallen, I guess I'm not as strong as I thought, all I can do, is cry to you..

Oh God you have to save me, you're the last and only hope.
All my right answers fail me, I can't seem to make it on my own.

I always thought that I would be strong enough, what made all of them fall wouldn't take me down.
Did I think I was above it all? - I have learned that pride comes before the fall.

I can't promise myself won't fall, because here I have fallen - I know I'm not as strong as I thought, all I can do is cry to you...

Oh God, you have to save me, you're my last and only hope
All my right answers fail me, I can't seem to make it on my own.